I've written a good amount about Alabaster. He is a coworker of mine who recently became one of my supervisors -- though not my direct supervisor. He made sure of that by telling HIS supervisor that he couldn't have me on his team because we have a "pre-existing personal relationship."
We hooked up three times about a year ago. Each time was wonderful. Then never again. In retrospect, I think it was a combination of things, but mostly that neither one of us wanted to be the one to make the move to initiate things again.
In the past year, we didn't see each other much, though I quite often drunk texted him. I'm very attracted to him, and he's always been in the back of my mind, though I haven't always admitted it to myself.
Like on New Year's Eve, when I started flirtatiously texting him even though I was in a relationship with the Hott Waiter -- a relationship that had only officially begun (initiated by him, of course, and blissfully agreed to by me and then confirmed on Facebook) a few days beforehand.
I was so embarrassed after that night, I immediately deleted every message exchanged between the two of us.
I ignored Alabaster for a while after that. Then the Hott Waiter and I broke up a few weeks later -- now a few months ago.
Then things started getting flirtatious again.
More tipsy texting. (Am I starting to drink too much?) He told me that "pre-existing personal relationship" thing. Then one day at work, I spent a while talking with him about Las Vegas (he goes there often) and Miranda and I both actually called him later that night to further discuss the hotel where we should stay and tried to convince him to come to Vegas the same weekend as us in June.
On Sunday night, I went over to my friend Emelia's house. She works with me and Alabaster, and she lives in the neighborhood adjacent to his -- I'm about a 20-minute drive from either. Emelia and I are very close and she has heard TONS about my history and feelings for Alabaster.
While watching House reruns, my phone vibrated with a text message. I opened my phone and my mouth fell open. I looked at Emelia.
"Alabaster?" she said.
"Yes!" I gasped. My heart raced. So few people can do that to me.
Alabaster: "[Your hairstyle] is intense"
(I had changed my Facebook status to "Samantha has [a crazy hairstyle]" and I had imported a note with an image of my hair and makeup look from the night before, the night during which I tried to make myself look nice for Nature Boy or any other prospective hookup.)
Me: "It's still pretty big"
Alabaster: "thats funny...are you going to try to maintain the look?"
Me: "Well, i see i have a fan!"
Alabaster: "Hahaha...i think i have to see it in person before i would consider myself a fan"
Thus began the texts. He was at the movies. Emelia and I squealed with each incoming text message. The messages were spaced out every couple of minutes, but I tried to wait longer than he did!
At one point, I became so nervous about the meaning of these messages that I became nauseated and started shaking. I begged Emelia for a piece of organic fruit; she brought me soy milk and crackers. That did help.
At one point I told him that I was amused that he was texting random work people while at the movies.
Alabaster: "i also love that you refered to yourself as a random [work person]"
Me: "Not so random, eh?"
Alabaster: "Not so much"
The movie would be ending around 12:15 AM, so I told him to give me a call when he got out. He told me he would.
Emelia and I started screaming.
To be continued....